bloop.

so im kind of tired of.. being tired all the time.

it's getting kind of..tiring.

tired of everything. tired of trying to forget everything. tired of trying to move on. tired of trying to move on by not doing anything. tired of saying 'tired'.

period.

done.

kay, it's as simple as that.

It gets depressing after a while. After all the hurricane and tornadoes that I bypassed and let through my life. You know what 'they' say. There's always a first for everything. But I never hear, there's an 'ending for everything'. These past couple of weeks, actually this whole month thus far, has been an emotional roller coaster, with addition to school drama and stress. I'd have to say, May of 2010 was the most brutal part of grade 12, especially because it's grad/prom month. It's the month where people get accepted in uni/college, also the month where people accept that they don't want to go to uni/college, also the month where everything in your studies is cramped up your ass and gives you constant discomfort. It's time to grow up people.

It's a part of life. You either go with the flow of the current, or try and win against it. OR YOU CAN DO BOTH AND RIDE IT, and make it yours. (Easy way/Hard way/Angel's way) All up to you.

It's time for me to get back up to my feet. Simply by riding life and trying my hardest. There might be troubles up ahead, and it knocked me down once, and I highly doubt it wouldn't knock me down again. But all I gotta do is get up. No more emo blogs. No more heart broken drama bullshit. No more fairytales but happy endings. It's time to show the world MY guns (not to kill PANDORA) and shoot them like no tomorrow.

Bloop there goes the non motivated, depressed, sad, mind-fucked, cry-baby, pushover, me.

I didn't say that they won't come back, nor they won't hit just as hard or twice as hard as before.

But I gotta keep faith. Hope in tomorrow. Live in today. Trust everything in God. Believe in Jesus. Love my friends and family. Love myself. It would be hard to love myself, but i'll try, and do my best, so that someday, I may love another and in turn would love me too.

Godbless.

Angel is back.